So maybe I'm a little bit ruffled.
My exams are starting tomorrow and all hand's are on deck. That's why I've been so not unbusy (if there's a word like that).
Most times when getting really acquainted with people I try as much as possible to hold back a lot cuz I wouldn't wanna be so into it for security reasons tho, but there's always some few occasions.
So there's my friend who we are practically always together, in class and out of it. ( if I'm in class before her, people go like where's she?).
My exams are starting tomorrow and all hand's are on deck. That's why I've been so not unbusy (if there's a word like that).
Most times when getting really acquainted with people I try as much as possible to hold back a lot cuz I wouldn't wanna be so into it for security reasons tho, but there's always some few occasions.
So there's my friend who we are practically always together, in class and out of it. ( if I'm in class before her, people go like where's she?).
Most times when we have a fallout or a misunderstanding, I always want to be the one to hold out the olive branch. So no matter how pissed or angry I am, I just call it ego/pride and drop it. Overtime, even when she's frowning or not smiling or not cheerful, I always like to think there's something I did or can do about it... But lately, stuffs happened and as usual I did call first but then it's never the same (with her or ME). I stalled for some days and really thought and to a large extent I felt like I was pushing it (she may not exactly be thinking that way but that's exactly how I feel). So, I'm just keeping a beautiful distance and hoping to be over this as soon as possible. (Of course, we can always do without anyone yh? But when you have been with someone so long and they become a huge part of you, you really can't help but feel this lonely when you are trying to know where you stand. And it hurts when you figure it out but trust me I'M GOOD). (Pls, no homo!)
I just miss her tho and I really doubt if we're ever gonna be as close but then that's okay at least we had our time right?
Phew, can't wait to go home to family.. Missing home like Gggggggggrrrrrrhhhh.
*in the meantime, someone's got some studying to do. Y'all be good for me, iyeh?
Ooh, have you listened to Dear God by Oche??. (Why not?!) That song rocked the life of my day, it totally made my day.. You should, the link is just right below, hurry and thank me later..
http://www.takeitentertainment.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/08/Oche-Dear-God.mp3
If you don't like this song, tell me so I'd return your MB (best bet - you'd love it)!
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