Gone girl. (•_•)!...

I'm all grown. Yes, I really am..
It took me a while to come to terms with that fact or accept that I am no longer who I used to be and I've come a long way from the little girl I used to be. I tried so hard to refuse to give myself credit and I tried just as hard not to talk to people about my deepest hurt, I have just been so scared for so long. All I wanted was to find that 1 great friend and cheer to forever ( how is that working out for you if you ever tried it?)
When I hold something / someone, i hold them so tight that when they go i feel like they take a part of me, and I always want to tell myself that they'll never go ( so maybe it took a while to come to terms with that also or maybe the reality of it is way too tasky). Maybe sometimes it's okay to let some people go, you'll never know if it is going to make you stand stronger. I finally realise that I'll have to save ME in the end.
BACK TO THE REAL WORLD

Bout that my friend thingy, we're really good ( like casual good). Actually she did visit today and said she wanted to clarify things and because too many people have been asking if we're OK she came to confirm if we're good. (That's great news right?, except that she didn't come because she missed her buddy or because things have been quite off lately and she just really wanted to make sure I was good. NO. She came because too many people have been asking questions and she wanted to male sure she didn't have any beef with anyone before the end of the semester. WOW! So much for been friends huh?). Anyways, it did make me understand a lot of things better and truth is I'm not holding a pin against her. So if you're ever at this end, you're strong even on your own and it's a phase, you'll pass, don't blame yourself or beat yourself up over nothing, don't drive yourself insane.  YOU'LL DO JUST GREAT. ( I promise ).. that's why sometimes, I like the story better in my head. ( you can't exactly blame me for that, can you??)
I finally woke up and i am so smelling the coffee. So let's have a toast, to the tears on my face as I finally let go (Cheers!!)

Dear God!

So maybe I'm a little bit ruffled.
My exams are starting tomorrow and all hand's are on deck. That's why I've been so not unbusy (if there's a word like that).
Most times when getting really acquainted with people I try as much as possible to hold back a lot cuz I wouldn't wanna be so into it for security reasons tho, but there's always some few occasions.
So there's my friend who we are practically always together, in class and out of it. ( if I'm in class before her, people go like where's she?).

This hour

.. Sometimes I just wanna go through the motions. Sometimes I pray that I'm doing the right thing. But so much is happening in my life and I feel like I'm void of who to talk to. Yeah I have friends (don't think I'm lonely) but i'ont want someone who will go 50 shades of judgmental on me. 

First, my weekend was really cool,  I tried settling an issue with another

The other day

I was on a bike and the feel of the wind on my face was like no other.
It all just came back... I felt really lonely, like really lonely. (You know that lonely feeling even when you are in the midst of a crowd). Like nobody was really connecting to a part of me.. (Can't explain it tho)
Went to class though, but it felt worse. I left the house and went to see my best friend of all time from way back.

We talked about the old times and laughed alot (he always has that effect of me, he snaps me out of any bad mood, no matter how sour or deep or bad.

Yeah Right!

So, it didn't work as we planned but exactly as I planned..
      What she wanted me to do was strip him off his clothes so she soaks it and pour the water on him sha and insult him and all.I really didn't. I'm not a fan of punishing people or judging people on their wrongs. Yes (him no try at all) but I believe he has a side to the story and everyone should be given a chance. So she walked in on us as we planned BUT when she started all the plenty shout and all, I called them down and told them I agreed to the plan so they could settle all of their plenty scores and it worked perfectly (I swear it wasn't easy o)

Sunday huh

How was church, hope you had fun cuz I certainly did, and
yes I am a church gurl. (Can't believe you had to ask. Or
maybe not).
Anyways, I gave a special ministration today, its like the
first time ever. (So yeah, its kind of a big deal). Turned out
nice tho.
Just about to carry on with my day.

So I promised to give u one special gist bah? Here is it.
I'm suppose to pretend to like the guy that twisted my
friends heart, (with the thought that - if he agrees with it,
he's worse that we actually thought he was ). He actually
believes already sha (stupid, I know right). His ex

Finally

I really don't know where to start from, but of course an apology is always a good start. I'm really sorry I just bailed out on you guys.
So one quick jist about what's happening.. I'm not exactly a die hard feminist but I refuse to clap for a guy treating any girl like crap not to talk of my own friend....
  ( Screaming... MY VERY OWN BEST FRIEND).
Recap - Here's what happened. They've been dating for a while now and after sometime and plenty happenings. She went to see him unannounced and she met a girl in bed with him ( you know the kind you watch in a Nigerian movie, only this time it's for real), and he so had the guts to introduce them and called the other lady "baby" meet "my friend's name", hr was speechless but say is she stopped to say hello

What happened.

My Mum's birthday was awesome. She had so much fun and she really loved the gift I got her.
Couldn't do this yesterday cuz I was on a journey back to school. And the journey was stressful but cool, I met this really nice guy in the car (he's nice cuz he offered his shoulder when I was feeling really sleepy and also offered to get me something to eat. Anyways I'm back in school and up on to begin my business (sell weavons) just starting tho.
Plus I've gotta go and prepare for class.
Y'all b prepared questions for Precious Reader  coming reap soon. !!!

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Hey. Been terribly unavailable.. Hello everyone
Yesterday was not funny ooh, the day was truly nice. I had a photoshoot section with my dearest photographer cousin (that is always with his camera) and later on, I went home to make dinner and at some point hot water spilled on my hand.. Wasn't quite funny I must confess, a part of my hand is a lil swollen now but I prayed about it already (may sound funny but I personally believe nothing is to irrelevant to pray about cuz the truth is that God cares about everything including the cloth you wear on). So, today was equally quite cool, went all up on alotta chores and then went for choir rehearsals (yes, I sing too) and then came home to prepare for my Mum's birthday (tomorrow is the

Bout today

I really cannot believe I'm still up and strong enough to type. Good (evening or night??) Anyone sha! (Its the sleep talking, not me).
My day was tiring tho, woke up really early and had to prepare to go with my mum to the office in order to go with her later to the market. So as early as 7 I was already frowning my face (think twas due to something my mum said or soo) and the ride to the office was the longest I've had in a while. However, we got to the office and settled in the sweetest of ways (not like I'll tell y'all, so shush!!). After which we got to the market and started buying stuffs o (with plenty walking) and then I got a call from Ecco (remember him?), saying a lot of things aren't exactly coolcool

My idea.

Today is starting off not nice at all. But hey, at least one thing is nice. This idea...
OK, its a game..
PRECIOUS READER.
The idea is to award two precious readers every week (with small airtime sha. I'm still a student oo)..
I'll publish a post somehow in the middle of the week and ask a question about something else that was published that week.. The first two people to send the correct answer to 08112975130 would get my airtime.. No matter how little. @ least its a start.
You can send it to the number above or ffl me on instagram @ capital_PRE and send me

Goodday!!

#singing "its a good day". Well my day was amazing!
And oh!! How's y'all doing?. Was so eager to jist you I forgot to ask ya.
Anyways today i woke up, prayed, upped all my chores, brushed my teeth, (maybe washed my undies),  had my bath, did my make up o, got dressed in the new sweet brown chiffon top my elder sis just got me and was all up and ready.
Told y'all that I was gonna see a movie with my friend na (been a

Eeermm

I really have to do this for a friend whose person I respect and his rap/flow I'm jealous of (like I wish I could write rap so good). Y'all pls download his song and leave comments here. He'll so b grateful to hear from u.
www.reverbnation.com/twix7
And that's it!

The explanation

Yh. I know I owe y'all an explanation for just disappearing like that..
Well, Monday was super cool.. Not like I went out or something, I had about 3friends come visit using the phrase "if the Mohammed don't come to the mountain, the mountain will go to Mohammed" plus I didn't mention. Except totally necessary, I hardly go out. Then after they left I went to Benji's place and came back home to work my eyes out.
And about yesterday, well well

Late post

I couldn't do this yesterday  cuz my battery was low (you know as 9ja light dey na na), but I'm bringing it fresh this morning. So Good morning to y'all and how was ur night?
Yesterday was Sunday and I had to go to church and really church was cool plus I played the role of student's teacher and it was the coolest feeling, since I naturally love kids I had a swell time( except when I had to yell a lil). Then afterwards I, my cousin and my elder sis took my younger brother to school (boarding house) and a lot happened in my head. Twas the school I graduated from and going back there dug a lot of memories( the good, the bad And the ugly) and at a point two of my juniors recognised me self,(back in school we

Pictures from Thanksgiving

                      

that's my mama... My younger sister... My  cousin and my sweet brother.

Woops!

Sleeping angry/sad/not too happy/pissed tonight. And it cuz of something my elder sis unnoticeably did. So I'd not count it. Meanwhile my day was cool a lil oh, at least I went out. Went out today to opebi, Lagos, Nigeria to print some pictures for my mum and just sight see. And I was in some shoe that had my leg *wanting to fight for freedom* but it all went pretty cool

Not so fun!

And today was stresssssssssssssssful. Yeah, it was. Oh, sorry. Hello everybody, how was ur own day?.
OK. So mine was stressful. First, I'm happily back home with my mum I miss her so dearly. The journey back was so annoying that I just couldn't help but wish I owned a car *Mtchew*. Then I came home and had to prepare dinner. Guess hard!.
Second big thing was my trial to settle things with my roomie. We are not exactly quarrelling tho but we just sorta slipped off from been friends into just been roommates and sometimes I just miss what we used to be. So I talked to her about it today and she finally said it. That she is usually scared to talk to me when I'm on my mood swings.. Woops!
The irony is I always wanna tell her what's bothering me but I just cannot, and truth is I can

This time!

This particular write up (paragraph) is inspired by John Legend and its headed by his song "this time". And I'm caught reminiscing about myself and all that went down, the people I let go, the moments I missed out on trying to be extra careful, the things I didn't say at the right time, the places I refused to go, the people i didn't give a chance and the people i almost knew.. Its not like I regret any but I'm just taking my time to imagine what would have happened...
OK, I didn't spend my time doing all that (like imagining and all). I spent my boring day watching a movie(RESOLUTION) and only took a break to cook and go to the market and right about now I'm talking to Ele (remember him?) Yh, guess u might. And I'm pretty sure I'd just continue my movie after this call soo.

Imma draw the curtains since there's not much to say. Oh, plus right about now my younger sister is

What's up??

Today was one of the most boring days in the year already.(save for two callers).
Woke up 2hrs after I slept o ( slept at 5am and I forcefully woke up at 7. Kindly don't ask me what I was doing up late! (To kill ur curiosity tho, I was watching a movie and chatting alongside). So I had to wake up and then next my dad told me to go and look for "agege bread"(you would understand if u were a lagosian and you're missing if you're not) just because my younger sister said she felt like

Today

So. I'm on my bed already and I am so not feeling sleepy. Time has passed and so has events, so in case I mention a strange name, I'll just () who she/he is. Today, I had my hair done and tho I really am not sure if the new look suits me, I'll still carry it.
I'm a little bit hurt now for a justifiable reason tho... Here's why!
I once dated this guy(name withheld) ( nothing serious tho, just teenage trial and error) and I got to know he was cheating (funny Yh?). And then he turned 180degree towards her and I became the side chick. I got tired and just broke up and truth is I never really hated him ( I so liked him, I was really fond of him) after a yle we came back and just as short it ended (my bad! A douche bag is always one). Then today he updated a post on bbm and was like he did a crazy thing blah,blah,blah. Then after a yle sha he told me what was.
The other girl broke up with him and he's trying really hard to get her back and so bad he wrote *tattooed* her name on his hand with a blade ( with plenty blood and all

Its about time

   Its about time
Yeah yeah. First I'll say
HAPPY  NEW YEAR and more than ever before may God bless you and open doors unto you, and also grant you the best of your heart desires.. And really I hope y'all have made your resolutions cuz I've not made mine. Its not like I can't, its cuz Ion't want to. And here's why. I believe you don't have to wait for a new year to make goals/ set goals for yourself. I'm not saying its bad to set goals, but you don't have to wait for a brand new year. You could always set goals for yourself, write it anytime and make sure you see through with it but to a lot of people "new year resolution" is a heap of hypocritic act, cuz they write it