Today

So. I'm on my bed already and I am so not feeling sleepy. Time has passed and so has events, so in case I mention a strange name, I'll just () who she/he is. Today, I had my hair done and tho I really am not sure if the new look suits me, I'll still carry it.
I'm a little bit hurt now for a justifiable reason tho... Here's why!
I once dated this guy(name withheld) ( nothing serious tho, just teenage trial and error) and I got to know he was cheating (funny Yh?). And then he turned 180degree towards her and I became the side chick. I got tired and just broke up and truth is I never really hated him ( I so liked him, I was really fond of him) after a yle we came back and just as short it ended (my bad! A douche bag is always one). Then today he updated a post on bbm and was like he did a crazy thing blah,blah,blah. Then after a yle sha he told me what was.
The other girl broke up with him and he's trying really hard to get her back and so bad he wrote *tattooed* her name on his hand with a blade ( with plenty blood and all

that pain) and she still didn't take him. And then I just got hurt and maybe jealous (I said maybe) cuz I really still like him and he didn't try to get me back. I have moved on oh! I just felt bad for a yle sha and I realized that if he's really not yours "Jupiter" won't make him stay no matter how hard u want to try (cuz i really wanted to) . And norms, I always feel better after typing, and that's all about that.
Another thing is, I am really scared about something. A spiritual father of mine wants me to start a fellowship and I swear I am crazy scared. First, i am not ready and I've not seriously prayed about it cuz I'm just as scared the holy spirit may say "do it". So I'm putting it on hold for the next two weeks. I already told a very close friend (Dan) and an inspiration (when it comes to God affairs) to pray for me about it. God knows I want a NO but over all let his will b done.
Nothing else really happened...  Chatting, talking, singing, cooking and all other daily stuff went down tho. And again, I am about to sleep. Picture of my new look below .